Last night I slept with Chase. Not just physically but literally slept with him. I know I shouldn’t have but I did, and God damn. The feeling of his warm body laying on me and hearing his heart beat is the most beautiful thing in the world. How he continues to roll over in the middle of the night and kiss me while he’s half asleep. I know It’s dumb but I love him. Now I sleep in his bed while he goes to school.. Goodnight

I just laid in bed with Chase while he looked at me and told me he truly doesn’t love me anymore.

I feel so numb

I would give my whole soul just to go back into those few months I had with Chase with him loving me so much. I miss you

I asked Chase “Why don’t you love me anymore”

He said “Found someone new”

Thank you for fucking ruining me again. When will I be good enough